February 2012
131 posts
I wish..
I wish that you smiled when you saw me. I wish you hugged me back. I wish you wanted to text me. I wish you wanted to text me back. I wish you wanted to see me. I wish you wanted to laugh together. I wish you went out of your way to see me. I wish you walked me to class. I wish you held my hand. I wish you wanted to kiss me. But in the end, I just wish you loved me.
Irony
You call yourself religious. You go to church and say that you love God. I on the other hand, have never been religious, never been to church for my own enjoyment, and do not love God. I also do not drink, smoke, or have sex. You on the other hand, do all those things. Religion does not make you a good person. Practice what you preach.
I don't know what you do..
I don’t know what you do. To pull me back in. Back into your trap. You make me feel loved and wanted, and then you cut me down worse than the time before. Each time you reel me back in, I think that you have changed. But everyone knows that people don’t change. And especially you. But I will always have this small hope in me, that you will change, and be the person that I think you...
buriedfeelingsleadtofakesmiles asked: I'm so sorry for reblogging all your stuff, i'm going through a phase right now. But i love your blog, and i love you...c:
As I stare at your contact in my phone, thoughts flood my mind. Are you thinking about me? Do you care about me? Do you want to talk to me. But the biggest questions are, how are you doing and are you happy. I don’t care about the horrible things you did to me. I still care about you just as much. if you’re happy not talking to me, then I will force myself to be happy. And as far as I...
I wonder if you know that all your friends talk to me. Text me. And like me. I don’t want them though, I just want you. And maybe that’s the reason I do want you. Because I can’t have you. You’re totally unavailable. You’re doing your own thing. You. Don’t. Need. Me.
People tell me to forget you. That I can do better. To move on. To ignore you. To not talk to you. They say you’re not good for me. But while everyone else sees the bad in you, I only see the good. But is there really any good? Or am I just creating you in my mind as a good person? Am I really that naive?
I’m not going to be the person that always puts in the effort. It has to be 50/50 in a relationship. But the ironic part is, once I have a guy that puts in effort, I don’t want that either…so in the end, I guess I’ll always want what I can’t have.
